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Shack-a-Thon, An Anthropologist’s Perspective

Photos by Lachlan Vester.

As I wake up on a brisk March Sunday morning, I realize what day it is. It’s Shack-a-Thon week, I think to myself as I roll out of bed. After what I imagine to be an getting ready montage of epic proportions, I go to start my car, a 2018 Chevy Cruze, the hatchback only to realize there is frost on my windshield. After scraping whatever frost late march can muster off of my car and hopping in I start my playlist to the tune of Geese and start out to the station. Yet another uneventful drive to campus I think to myself as I let the music consume me for the short eleven minute drive. Of course in my excitement to start the day, a rarity in the monotony of the end of a semester, I did not seem to realize that there was something I was forgetting. 9:30, That’s what I was forgetting. You see, as I walked into the studio at around 7:30 it hit me. Nobody will be here for a solid two hours.

The area that will become Shackville before the building had begun

Here might be a good place to explain what Shack-a-Thon is to my non NC State audience. Shack-a-Thon is a fundraiser where NC State student organizations build “shacks” and live in them for a week to raise money for Habitat For Humanity. These shacks are usually planned out by the orgs and built by students to withstand the week. While there are some regulations in place, the design and building is left up to the students. In my infinite drive to investigate the anthropological ideas behind everyday life, I have decided to document the process, the living, and the fun of Shack-a-Thon for the purpose of understanding the informal settlements and maybe, just maybe urban life and community.

The idea of a one week city caught my attention almost instantly. The novelty of the ability to study such a short-term encampment, while being a part of it was intriguing to say the least. I saw it all happen last year, however, I didn’t think of it as an object of study. This semester changed everything for me, I started a course in urban anthropology and the idea was like sparks flying in my mind. By early March, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. The whole thing was intoxicating to me.

The WKNC 88.1 Shack during construction

Throughout the day the WKNC shack came together, with a few hick-ups. As I’m writing this I am still in the shack, tired, but proud of what our team had created. With just some hammers, and a lot of nails, we built a full structure, a shack if you will. This shack is what I hope will be the beginning of a beautiful community gathering. The small city that we have erected in a day was around twenty shacks strong. Even within the building of this informal settlement, there were glimpses of what will be in the little gestures of kindness between groups all working towards the same goals. A shared hammer, an extra set of hands when they were needed, the kinds of things I was hoping to see coming into this project. I am what I would call optimistic at this moment. It’s the kind of optimism that I don’t feel often, the kind that takes a lot of hard work to gain. Hard work that I one hundred percent put in today in raising the shack from the ground up.

After a much needed walk around the area I have decided to name the area Shackville and will be referring to the collective area as such for the rest of my time writing about it.

Entering day one of the official Shack-a-Thon the community was starting to grow. I arrived in the morning sore and groggy from the fifteen hour day that I put in the previous day. As the day moved on, I began the work of parsing out information through both observation and actually talking to people.

Starting with the observational data I was able to recover from this first day, there were a couple of things I noticed. For starters, the WKNC Shack does not have much to offer in terms of the urban environment feel I was looking for. This is because it is on the outskirts of Shackville. As you move further in, to the more expensive and high-traffic areas, I began to notice a trend of community and competition. Through the fundraising efforts of the shacks, rivalries began to form between neighbors. While some shacks were friendly with one another, others were in stark opposition to one another. This trend was especially noticeable between the Greek life shacks near the center of Shackville. Now at this current moment I am conflicted in my assessment of this correlation. On one hand it could be that the shacks are in a far denser area of Shackville, on the other could the organizations have prior interactions I am unaware of? This question will require further investigation throughout the week.

here are two main strips of Shackville, The front row being more of an outer rim and the inner main concourse. The inner concourse represents an urban center to the settlement of Shackville. This urban center creates a tighter-knit community, while also breeding competition between shacks. There is more of a suburban environment in the outer ring of Shackville. This suburban vibe is extremely important to understanding the idea of what makes the area an urban environment.

After speaking with several residents of Shackville on the topic of competition I have concluded that while the competition was prevalent during the day in good fun of course, there was always the knowledge that once the sun was down, everyone would come together and be friends once again. This was part of the magic of Shackville, no matter the day, something was always happening to make it special. Like I have said before, there was always companionship when needed, despite the competition.

Through speaking with members of different shacks, I have been able to gauge that the more central the shack, the more competitive the different groups are with one another. The dense population of the central area of Shackville adds to the competition as each shack is vying for the attention of shoppers on the strip.

As the night rolls around and the environment becomes a lot less connected. Participants trend towards the insides of their shacks and begin to socialize within their established cliques. This creates a more quiet, calm energy that permeates the entire grounds of Shackville. This calm is where the beauty of Shackville shows the most. As groups of residents gather in their shacks for the night playing board games and instruments or just conversing between themselves, the community begins to shine through. After dark, the quiet permeates the air as the street lights flick on. This time is where the multiplicity of Shackville stands out. As the people of Shackville return to their cliques and mesh less with one another, they begin to display how diverse the area really is. The individual cultures of each shack are of full display throughout the night. From the WKNC shack playing music in a mini jam session, to the games of stump being played by Ski Club, each shack has its own culture of full display during the night.

The main strip of Shackville as the sun goes down on night one

Day two of Shackville involved a lot less sales as the cliques began to deepen their ties within themselves. As neighbors begin to become more comfortable with each other, these cliques begin to include members of other shacks as bonds form through inter-shack sales as they begin to spike. An example I personally experienced was the sales between WKNC and Backpacking club. A trade of goods between shacks began to form through borrowing items and trading sale items. I was able to borrow a drum from Backpacking club in exchange for a wheel spin at the WKNC shack. These trades exemplify the informal economy forming between residents of Shackville.

While the different cultures of Shackville are a huge standout piece of the puzzle, the melding of these cultures into a Shackville culture was evident by about night three. The nightly culture of Shackville was like a microcosm of college life where everyone is having a good time, despite homework and finals coming up. The life at Shackville is a life of no worries and no sense of the week ending.

While in the early stages of this project I was under the impression that there would be a lot less of this inter-shack community and trade, however, as the week moved forward there was a clear change in how different shacks interacted with each other. The multiplicity of Shackville gave way to a hegemony of culture. From different sales tactics being coopted to the actual items being sold having been copied by different shacks. The biggest example of this that I noticed was the “pie a shack member” pitch. This idea started around the beginning of day two, to be honest I am not sure which shack offered this first.

By day four, there had been a full co-opting of the “pie a shack member” idea. The spread to other shacks had been almost instant. There were at least three shacks with this on their menu of things you could donate for by Thursday. Another popular item was a wheel spin for a random prize. These wheel spins were popular from day one as they were an easy and colorful way to draw people into your shack. There were three to four shacks that included a wheel. These include the casino shack, WKNC, and Alpha Phi Omega. This method of drawing people in was extremely popular within the Shack-a-Thon event. In the context of the WKNC shack, this was the most commonly sold option at the table despite the pricing being the same for the wheel as the things on the wheel.

A uniting factor of Shackville, especially after hours, was music. Due to a ban on amplified sound, the music scene was fully acoustic. This means nearly every shack had guitars, banjos, and cajuns galore. Jams between shacks were common, jams within shacks even more so. At the WKNC shack jams were a nightly occurrence with everyone singing along throughout the night.

Shackville’s atmosphere after hours on the final night is one of a mass hangout that will never end, despite the impending doom of the shacks coming as soon as the next morning. Dancing, singing, playing the guitar, and general socialization is at its peak tonight. The population has jumped from previous nights as everyone says goodbye to their own piece of shack heaven. The shacks have brought us together, created rivalries, friendships, and bonds of every kind.

The party didn’t stop until around three in the morning on the final night of Shackville’s existence. There was a congregation of people from all of the shacks sharing the night. This was something really special to me as an anthropologist. Being able to see a community, my community comes together in such a way. Being a part of this adventure was like nothing I have ever experienced before. The people I met, forgot their names, and met again, made Shackville a special place to me.

​​With that sappy section out of the way, lets have another one:

I want to take this last paragraph to thank everyone who made Shackville what it was. From Habitat NCSU to WKNC, to all of the different organizations on campus that came together for this event. I also want to shout out a few people in particular including: Ayla Bosnian, a fellow anthropology student at state, Dr. Christian Doll, my urban anthropology professor and most of all: Sarah Hernando, WKNC’s General Manager for putting together the best shack of the event in my heart.

-Lachlan Vester

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Concert Review Short Stories

Misadventures in Journalism

It was Saturday night in November and I was getting ready to go to a concert and write a review. I spent way too long picking out an outfit and doing my hair and makeup. It took forever, but eventually I was able to make it out of my apartment and into a Lyft. I had to take a Lyft even though I did not plan on drinking because I do not drive and I was going alone. Both of these are facts that will become relevant all too quickly.

The drive was decent but pretty long. About five minutes away from the venue I wondered to myself if there was an opening act. I couldn’t remember seeing that there was one, but I am a forgetful sort of person. I pulled out my phone to check. I was already on the venue website from checking their bag policy earlier that evening. I clicked on the event listing the concert I was trying to see to get a closer look. That is the moment I spotted it.

Underneath the details for the show was a small location icon. Next to it? The name of an entirely different venue. It was being sponsored by the venue whose website I was on at an entirely different location forty minutes drive back the way I came. 

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How to Solve Hatred with Honey Bees

A friend once told me, “it’s impossible to understand and hate someone.”

I laughed at the time. It was a bold and, to some extent, generous claim considering that the most evil people to ever walk the Earth usually have a sympathetic sob story at the root of their remorseless tendencies. As a result, I wholeheartedly disagreed with her assertion. She rolled her eyes, unwilling to argue with me. We quickly moved on from the topic after, reminiscing about ex-friends over flat soda early into the morning. 

Strangely, it wasn’t an encounter with an impatient driver or a despotic professor that struck the memory back into my skull. It was a honey bee. 

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From Belly Rubs to Vaccines: Growing Up Isn’t Always Easy

I miss being a child. I really do. Waking up to belly rubs and kisses instead of blaring alarms feels like a luxury long gone.

I long for the time when the only problem I had in the world was trying to go everywhere my parents went, I miss not having to decide what to eat for every meal, and just a week ago I missed not having to go for a medical appointment on my own. These little comforts of childhood now seem like distant memories, replaced by the demands of adult life.

While my friends couldn’t wait to grow up, I always secretly treasured my childhood.


As the second-born, I had a front-row seat to my older sister’s gradual departure from the carefree years we once shared and it never seemed as glorious as everyone raved it was.

I noticed how she played less and less. She no longer watched the shows that we had both loved and had been obsessed with, she no longer laughed at silly little things like we used to.

Adulthood seemed like a scam, and I wanted no association with it.

But yet there I was last Friday, exactly where I have always feared I’d be. Sitting ALONE in the sterile, waiting room of campus health services, I couldn’t help but reflect on how far I’ve come from those carefree days.

Doctor appointments have always been awful, but for the first time, I felt awfully cold sitting there alone after struggling to sign myself in and understanding what was required of me. I tell you,
sitting alone in a waiting room waiting to be called in is now on the list of experiences I hate.

Why was I at campus health, you may ask? To get vaccine shots, but I can happily say that waiting to be called in was the last of the awful experiences because once I was called, I was attended to by a truly wonderful nurse.

She made me feel as though I was no longer alone for the visit. In addition to her sweet persona, she had an aura I can only describe as motherly. She was the first person to clearly explain why I was there and why I needed the vaccines, and took the time to describe how each of the three vaccines would feel once administered.

We rounded up the session with her asking me to pick some stickers she had laid out on a table.

‘You can have more than one,’ she said, transforming my first health appointment from a dreadful one into a very memorable experience. Sadly, I don’t recall her name because she told me while I was still nervous, but I’d like to say a huge thank you to her.

On that note, make sure you have fulfilled the requirements for your immunization records and are no longer on hold.

The deadline is September 13, which is only two weeks away. I’d suggest going now rather than later because it might get a lot busier with longer wait times.

Going to a clinic, especially alone, might seem scary, but I
promise it’s all in your head. My whole visit lasted about an hour, and yes, the shots stung a little, but it’s nothing compared to the pain of being dropped from classes and having to pay the $150 fee.

So, if you haven’t yet taken care of your immunization
records, don’t wait until the last minute. Trust me, you’ll thank yourself later—and you might even walk away with a sticker or two.

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Transgenerational Inheritance (feat. Limp Bizkit): A Personal Essay

In the days after my cousin died, things were chaotic. We gutted her apartment, tossing the groceries that had been left to rot on her countertops — she’d had them delivered, but never made it home to put them away — and sorting through boxes and boxes of glittery soaps, salves, tinctures and ointments.

My extended family, worn out both from the flight down here from New York and the drive down to Myrtle Beach to claim my cousin’s body, had us trash most of it.

Over the course of two days, the dumpster filled with more and more of my cousin’s things: garbage bags packed almost to splitting with sunglasses, costume jewelry and random, unused items from television ads that had long gathered dust.

Photo by Kenny Eliason on Unsplash

My youngest brother uncovered a custom hookah shaped like a badazzled machine gun, and lamented as our mother (“hell no! absolutely not!”) refused to let him keep it. My other brother found a lockbox filled with “miscellaneous pills and powders,” which he quickly resealed. The key (with a fob reading “Italian Girls Have More Fun”) remained jammed inexorably into the keyhole.

We didn’t throw away everything. While my living cousins made off with designer bags, photographs and a glass-blown pineapple-shaped bong (“for sentimental value,” one cousin stressed), I found myself gravitating towards stranger things. Bric-a-brac, tchotchkes and glorified trash.

A box of rave kandi. A bottle of orange liquer shaped like a dachshund. An old ID from the community college she’d dropped out of in 2006.

Scanned kandi

After we emptied her apartment, everyone went back home. My grandparents and great aunt flew back to New York. One of my cousin’s long-time friends came and collected her bereaved yorkie. I went and took my board-op test to become a DJ. They had the memorial service up in New York and everyone got stoned (or so I heard.) So it goes.

Somewhere along all of this (it all feels nonlinear to me, like skipping through a movie in 10-second incremends), I ended up with a bag of CDs.

Photo by Brett Jordan on Unsplash

“Here, do you want these?” My mother held them out like one does a dirty diaper, pinching the bag (it was one of those plastic sleeves people keep duvet covers in) by the corner so the CDs puddled in the bottom. They were loose and probably scratched to all hell; probably unusable, really; probably trash.

I took them anyways, stuffing the bag under my bed to rot.

Over two years later (specifically, March 30, 2024), I decided to finally work my way through them. Here’s what I learned:

Laying Out the Particulars of My Inheritance

Parsing through my cousin’s CD collection was like cracking open a time capsule from the early 2000s. As I sat on my bedroom floor and fed disc after disc into my cheap CD player, I felt like I was talking to her — and my adolescent self — again.

“God, you really liked Ludacris, didn’t you?” I said to someone who wasn’t there. Not physically, at least.

It was a 21st century seance, a transgenerational ceremony conducted via polycarbonate. I was channeling my cousin’s spirit, and rather than imploring her to answer my burning questions (“What is life like after death?” “Did you understand what was happening?” “Are you at peace?”), I silently judged her drippingly-2010’s music taste.

Like me, she’d constructed most of her young life around music. I could trace her progression of style, the alt rock and grunge of the 90s and early 2000s giving way to the hip-hop renaissance of the 2010s.

I laid out tall stacks of custom CDs with titles like “Summer 2006,” “Hot Sh–” and “My Mix” lettered in girlish sharpie. I imagined how old she had been when she wrote them, whether or not she’d had her nails done and if her wrists were heavy with gaudy beaded bracelets.

Scanned CDs

In a time before iPods and bluetooth and — heavens forbid — Spotify, burning CDs was a sacred practice. Music was corporeal, and one’s affinity for the stuff became something physical — piles of CDs, stacks of vinyl, etc — that demanded real estate. By comparison, my preferred method of music consumption (streaming) seemed compressed.

In my adolescence, I myself burned songs onto discs — pirating the tracks online, then meticulously ordering them by “vibe” — and eventually did the same on my first iPod. But those were all long gone, sublimated into a single app on a phone I often misplaced.

Sitting cross-legged with a plethora of discs fanned out before me, I picked out several names: System of a Down (one of my top artists of 2023), Nirvana (also one of my top artists), Kittie, Korn, Slipknot and an obscene amount of Limp Bizkit.

Cover for “Chocolate Starfish and the Hot Dog Flavored Water” by Limp Bizkit

I’ll be honest: I’m not all that familiar with Limp Bizkit’s discography. I’m more familiar with Fred Durst, who I’ve mentally elevated to the status of a sort of mythical folklore hero (or antihero?). Anyways, I decided to put on “Chocolate Starfish and the Hot Dog Flavored Water” and was utterly shocked by how awesomely stupid it was. It’s great.

I could imagine my cousin, a teenager or perhaps in her early twenties, speeding down the highway in her little blue SUV and cranking the radio up to full blast, singing along to Fred f–ing Durst and reveling in the invincibility of youth and the heat of a seemingly endless southern summer.

I’m a renegade riot gettin’ out of control
I’m a keepin’ it alive and continue to be
Flyin’ like an eagle to my destiny
So can you feel me? (hell yeah)
Can you feel me? (hell yeah)
Can you feel me? (hell yeah)

“Livin’ it Up” – Limp Bizkit

Transgenerational theory posits rules for the ways in which rrituals, practices, behaviors and philosophies move down generational lines.

Think transgenerational trauma: agony passed down from grandmother to mother to daughter over three lifetimes. Her mother was my mother’s aunt, second eldest of seven first-generation Italian immigrants. Evidently, not a fan of Fred Durst or Serj Tankian or any of the other yelling men my cousin liked to listen to.

And while the CD collection made its way into my hands (unceremoniously, I might add) intergenerationally (i.e., it was literally passed down), the physical discs themselves weren’t the only thing I was given. There was something else in transference, something intangible. A transgenerational impulse.

Photo by K. Mitch Hodge on Unsplash

Energy, maybe. A parasocial connection to a teenager I’d never met who grew up to be an adult I loved and lost, a teenager who probably wasn’t much different (if anything, less emo) than my own teenage self. A teenager who meticulously curated mixes for each season, each new year, each new release.

I pop in a disc without a name — it’s hazy green on the front — and watch it spin, and instead of frenzied guitar and drums, I hear a delicate strumming and familiar, dreamlike voice.

I don’t miss you
I don’t wish you harm
And I forgive you
And I don’t wish you away
Away
Away

“Soothe” – Smashing Pumpkins

It’s “Soothe,” a demo tape by Smashing Pumpkins. I’ve never heard it before, but for a moment, I can imagine I’m my cousin: young, alive, lounging before a CD player. For a moment, two dimensions in time: mine here and hers there, run parallel.

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Are Concerts in 2023 Really A Bust?

About a month ago, I attended three concerts of different audiences: Lil Yachty, Lana Del Rey and TV Girl. All of these were amazing but, the audiences were all quite unique. Concert culture has been at the forefront of many discussions recently and I can’t help but insert my own perspective into the discourse as an avid concertgoer.

The theory is our concerts have been remodeled by the media and a new generation of concert attendees. Everyone has the right to enjoy a show they paid for in their own way, but it has felt in recent years that people are paying to be there rather than to be in the moment. There is more judgment toward singing and dancing along, with a phone screen in front of you at all times. I decided to observe this theory of concerts during my weeklong show trip across the beautiful state of North Carolina.

Show 1: Lil Yachty

Lil Yachty Singing on stage at The Ritz

The first was Lil Yachty’s Field Trip Tour on September 25 at The Ritz. Lil Yachty brought unmatched energy. He switched between his early Hip hop tunes and newest psychedelic sound from his most recent album Let’s Start Here. It seemed, however, that people were unenthused outside his most popular rap hits. Phones went down and small conversations broke out throughout the crowd. It felt a bit disrespectful, almost as if we begin to focus less on the production and live music more on grasping the moments which bring the most popularity.

When artists rise up due to the internet’s exposure, they are pressured to fit the narrative that put them in the spotlight meaning they have little room for experimentation without some judgment. In this case, it was Lil Yachty’s psychedelic sound. It was as if some audience members didn’t want to try his new sound. Regardless of how audience members felt Lil Yachty put together an amazing production that I would pay to see again.

Show 2: Lana Del Rey

Lana Del Rey singing on stage

Lana Del Rey on the other hand still had this phenomenon of viral fame but the experience was slightly different outside the genre aspect. Lana del Rey is a timeless singer therefore, I knew her audience would bring people of all levels of familiarity but what I was most surprised to see was a significant amount of people coming in last minute. Seriously, the person sitting next to me came halfway through the set and was annoyed by the singing fans.

Meanwhile, I sat beside him feeling reborn at seeing Lana Del Rey live. The people in front of me came in late and left twice. It boggled me a bit given tickets were so expensive and some felt nonchalant. I have a suspicion that scalpers who couldn’t sell their tickets decided to attend. There really was just a strange dynamic of people in the crowd at least in my section. The show seemed widely enjoyable regardless of the people around me I observed. I felt judged by some of the people around me but alas I did pay an unspeakable amount.

Show 3: TV Girl

Brad Petering of TV Girl on stage

TV Girl really put the theory of media shaping concerts to the test. They rapidly gained their fame on social media during the past couple of years so I expected the crowd to be a part of this new generation of concertgoers. To my surprise, it was the best crowd out of the shows I attended that week. Everyone seemed to be more in the moment, singing and dancing along. The crowd was respectful and it made the energy quite amazing. On social media, I had seen viral videos complaining about the TV Girl crowd being this model of a new era concertgoer who is always recording or may only know the most popular songs but that proved incorrect. 

Final Thoughts

So, what is my take on concerts in 2023? At the end of the day, you can’t really tell someone how to enjoy a show they paid for. You just have to make the experience enjoyable for yourself and hone in on the performance. Of course, the crowd can impact how much you enjoy the show but at the end of the day regardless of the crowds, I had a great time at all three shows.

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Miscellaneous Short Stories

WKNC Goes to an Olive Garden in Orlando After Doing More Important Things

I, and five other of my treasured members of WKNC staff (plus our amazing advisor Jamie) had the special privilege of getting to represent the station at the CBI National Student Electronic Media Convention in Orlando, Florida from Oct. 19 – 21. While there, we scored three awards for how awesome we are, along with an even bigger prize: knowledge that will be applied to make the station better in the near future.

This blog isn’t about that though.

This blog is about Olive Garden.

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Being Pretentious (and also Only Twelve)

Much like many other people who frequently listen to the WKNC daytime block, I was raised on the outdated music of my parents. I mistakenly assumed that there had to be a reason I only heard older music at home: it had to be better than new music or something.

I am glad I do not think this way anymore. Amazing music has been made in all kinds of genres and being open minded is what allows you to appreciate as much of it as possible.

Questionable Beatles Appreciation

Album Cover for 1 (compilation album) by The Beatles
Album cover for 1, a compilation album of music by The Beatles

So yeah, when I was younger, I really liked The Beatles. I listened to the “1” album (a compilation album including many of their largest hits) over and over again. For some reason, I thought this made me an authority on music or something.

A few things happened when music was brought up around me during that time which I now think are pretty funny.

Not being the friend you want to talk about music to

I was talking to a friend in seventh grade and he asked me what my favorite Beatles song was because he knew I loved their music. I had a hard time choosing a song so he told me his favorite song. The song was “Across the Universe”.

That song is often though to be one of the best Beatles songs. It has been covered by numerous artists including Fiona Apple, David Bowie and strangely even Evanescence…

Despite the songs critical acclaim, 13 year old me had no clue that the song existed so I told him, “I have never heard it, it probably sucks”.

This was an unfortunate thing for me to say about one of his favorite songs. I definitely did not “win” that conversation.

Music has such an awesome ability to bring people together and I was definitely not utilizing that at 13.

Struggling to know the decades

In sixth grade, my history teacher began talking about music and asked the class what our favorite 80’s bands were. I raised my hand and when I was called on I told the class that The Beatles were my favorite 80’s band. The teacher gave me a look as if I had said something wrong but I was not really sure why.

I later realized that The Beatles broke up 10 years before the decade even began.

Bonus story: Being mildly traumatized by recorded music

This story comes from when I was much younger but I thought I should include it. I was probably three or four and I was in the bath with my mom supervising me. A CD Boombox (an AM-FM radio with a built in CD player) was on the bathroom counter and the White Album by The Beatles was inside it playing.

Many people think that the album is too unfocused as it has many songs that are strange diversions, but I loved the stories and sounds in the songs as a child.

My mom briefly left the room and a song from the B side of the record that I had not heard before began playing. The track was “Revolution 9”.

If you have never heard the song, maybe consider listening to it so you could better understand how a three year old brain would react to it. The song sounds like it was designed to scare kids with its reversed dialogue, baby cries, rising orchestral pitches, crashing cymbals, distressed voices and other harsh sounds.

A fun bath time with soap bubbles soon became visceral horror. I was definitely crying and belligerent while this was happening.

What made this even worse was that I happened to be so small that I could not reach the CD player when I got out of the bath to skip the song so I just had to listen to it. I do not remember if the full 8 minutes and 22 seconds of the track played out or if my mom came back and stopped it but either way I was not having a good time.

I am still freaked out by that song (even though I think it is conceptually cool) and have skipped it while alone a few times.

Conclusion

Don’t be pretentious, especially not if you have no clue what you are talking about. You don’t want to sound like a middle-school aged Beatles fan, do you?

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Drainuary: A Tragedy in Two Parts

Hope, Part 1

On February 7, 2023, I made a commitment to myself and a small group of friends. For the rest of February, the only music I would listen to would be within the “drain gang”. For anyone who doesn’t know, drain gang includes a plethora of artists including Bladee, Ecco2k, Thaiboy Digital, and Yung Lean. The genre is a blend of hyperpop and trap, which many seem to enjoy.

I had never listened to any of these artists prior to that day. Naively, I assumed that this challenge, called “Drainuary” would be a good introduction to the genre. However, drain gang would soon take its toll on my mental health.

Yung Lean
Yung Lean performing at The Hoxton in 2016. Photo courtesy of Drew Yorke, under Creative Commons.

The Demise, Part 1

For context, I listen to approximately 6 hours of music every day. It gets me through both the good times and the bad. Music hypes me up for the gym and puts me to sleep. The issue with listening to this much music arises when I can no longer listen to a diverse music palette. Over the first 24 hours of Drainuary, I listened to about six hours of Bladee alone.

This statistic alone broke me. Exactly at that 24 hour mark, I decided to abandon the challenge, knowing that my mental state would only further deteriorate from there. I wasn’t enjoying the music that much, and I only listened to drain gang out of spite. But, this journey was not yet finished.

Hope, Part 2

One friend of mine suggested that I should instead listen to an artist that I actually enjoyed. After searching through my playlists for artists starting with an F (for February), I finally landed on Fiona Apple. Now, I would listen to no music except for that in which Fiona Apple played a part in creating. Although I hadn’t listened to all of her catalogue, I adored her latest album “Fetch The Bolt Cutters”.

Compared to Drainuary, “Fiona February” was a breath of fresh air. Her music spanned a far greater range of emotions than someone like Bladee, and I could assign an identity to each of her albums. As a result, cycling through her music felt far more natural, allowing me to keep with Fiona February for longer into the month.

Fiona Apple singing
Fiona Apple at Damrosch Park Aug 8, 2015. Photo courtesy of Sachyn Mital, under Creative Commons.

The Demise, Part 2

Longer is a bit misleading of a term though. After five days of listening to nothing except Fiona Apple, I started having a mental breakdown and needed to use other artists to ground myself again. Granted, I was also dealing with other issues at the time, but Fiona February certainly didn’t help.

What I Learned

Despite what I had expected, intentionally limiting my listening to just one type of music is extremely difficult. I was unable to complete many tasks I can normally do just fine, because I felt like I didn’t have the “right” music playing. Additionally, I found out just how heavily I tend to lean into music as a coping mechanism for whatever I’m dealing with at a given time.

As a result, I felt like I couldn’t process things that arose in my life well, if at all. I don’t know if there’s really a moral or anything of the sort to gleam from this situation. All I know is that I can never actively limit my music listening to one or a couple of artists.

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Wildlife I’ve Seen Around NC State Campus

NC State University is right in the middle of a sprawling city. Because of this, it is not very common you will see wildlife around campus. Since the start of last year, I have tried to take a picture whenever I see the fauna of campus. Starting from last fall, I want to share some of the animals I have run into.

Wildlife Pictures and Stories

The animal that started this collection for me is this black cat I ran into at 3:01 in the morning on a late-night walk in August. There was something mystical about running into this little guy at night so late at night when there wasn’t a single person around Centennial Campus. I have not seen this cat since it ran off into the night shortly after I took this blurry picture, but I hope they are doing well, living a full and happy cat life.

The next animal I ran into was a doe and her fawns at night about a month later. Again on a late night walk, I ran into this nice little family at 3:13 in the morning. It’s been almost a full year since this late-night encounter but these deer fawns are probably fully grown now, roaming around campus on their own.

After a winter break away from campus, I went on a run around Lake Raleigh. While on my run I looked over the water and saw these two lovely turtles basking in the sun. Since then, I look out at that log whenever I pass by it, and often another turtle is there, basking.

Seeing this snake peering over at me out of the corner of my eye as I left my building was quite the jump scare. This is probably the largest snake I have ever seen out in the wild. However, when I realized that they meant no harm and were just relaxing out in the evening sun, I relaxed. When I returned to the spot a few hours later, they were gone.

Conclusion

While this is a very small fraction of the wildlife I have seen around NC State’s campus, I think these animals in particular had quite the impact on me.

I am glad that while NC State is in such a big city, there is a lot of nature around, allowing for animals like these to make their way into students’ lives. Taking time to enjoy and appreciate the nature around me on campus has been a great source of stability through difficult coursework.

If you want to experience nature around campus but don’t know where to go, some good places are:

  • Lake Raleigh
  • Pullen Park
  • Yates Mill Park
  • JC Arboretum
  • WRAL Azalea Garden
  • Dorothea Dix Park
  • North Carolina Museum of Art Park